andiegurl's wurld

:: hearing the words "i dont love you anymore":: letting go of a person u've just learned to love:: reminiscing the good times u shared together:: shielding ur heart to love somebody:: trying to hide what u really feel:: trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes :: loving a person too much :: giving up someone u never thought of giving up:: having the right love at the wrong time:: taking the risk to fall in love again:: hiding ur relationship from someone else:: controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend:: thinking of him every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he never even thinks a single thought of you...:: letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper:: holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out:: falling inlove with someone you didnt mean to fall inlove with:: finding the perfect guy...with only one problem....he doesnt love you...:: helping the one you love court your friend:: seeing the one you love crying for someone else:: the waiting also hurts like hell:: having to hear "... I've met someone":: agreeing to his wish to 'just be friends'.:: asking his freedom back bcoz 'he'd be happier with her':: asking u to 'forget that everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again.:: hearing that u're treated as a sis :: sharing his future plans for the girl with you.:: u stopped being friends bcoz his gf asked him to.:: being denied in front of people.:: telling u lies where he'd been when actually, he was with a 'new friend' or an 'old flame' :: he told u he'd be leaving u to return to her ex (d one he left 4 u!):: breaking someone's heart:: fighting for that one thing that would make you happy:: that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his/her commitment unless he/she fixed himself/herself...then, you are left hanging for the moment...then he/she says, time will tell... but you still decided to hope in him/her and trust him/her:: PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying...:: PRETENDING to be strong.... and RECOGNIZING your weakness:: lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have...:: being with someone you can't actually love...:: pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love...:: being in love...:: making love with him/her, and thinking 'bout somebody else at the same time:: letting go even if you really don't want to... :: having no right to say you are hurting, :: seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help that person...:: having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he/she doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before:: having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable:: admitting that you love someone despite her/his imperfections:: finding out that the more you try to hate her/him, the more you end up loving her/him, perhaps even more than before...:: realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.:: the thought that this girl/guy, used to really love you and you loved her/him as well but you didn't give enough and she/he gave up on you:: Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else....:: making a promise....and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered....the commitment is no longer there...:: losing someone you never had from the start:: the hardest thing about love - believing it exists

haaay...a lot had happened since i last wrote something...gretch and glades are now gone...i had an SLA last week..then i had 1 vendor log yesterday...shit ANDREA what's happening?! Ang daming pumapalpak sa paligid ko pero ako yung nakikita...bad trip tlga! i dont feel good..nwwarp tlga ako...ang tagal ko ng ndi nraramdaman 'to...warpness...andito ka na naman!! ano ba? para kang si ano...ang tagal kong iniwasan tas anjan ka na naman sa harap ko!! haaay...i hate what i'm feeling..god pls help me...onti na lang tlga i'm really gonna snap...