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..it's true that people don't really know how to be contented with what they have..dati sabi ko once na magka-laptop na ko..happy na ko..i'm happy naman eh pro meron pa pla akong ibang gusto..haaaay..this is really mababaw pro i really wanna own an original Louis Vuitton speedy bag..haaaaay..super expensive naman kasi..pro someday..i know i'll own one..hehe :)

..the other day i was checking Georgina Wilson's blog..she's really very pretty..kakainggit!..parang she has everything na..then i read Bianca's (Gonzales) blog..she wrote something about the things that people wanted..sabi nya na yung soobrang dream daw ng ibang tao, wala lang sa iba..then yung soobrang gusto ng ibang tao..problema naman sa iba..Oh di ba? hehe..narealize ko na i'm sure that there are some things that i have na soobrang gusto or kinakainggitan din ng iba..i just don't see it..pro i'm sure na meron..hehe..

..every night i pray that God will give me the strength and courage to face everyday challenges..and sana tanggalin na nya lahat ng hate and inggit sa puso ko..i guess he's really doing a good job..hehe..cuz i'm still here :)..and now..i'll be adding to my prayers na sana pati sa ibang tao ganun na din yung gawin nya..para happy lahat d b? :)

..it's been more than a year since my last entry..as in suuuuper tagal na..a lot of things changed..i already left accenture last March..my last day was really sad..everyone was crying.. ='( ..now i'm currently employed at nucomm as a QAS (quality assurance specialist)..and i'm quite happy with my new career..so far..hehe..

..i just recovered from a heartache..but until now i dunno why it happend..why he left without even saying goodbye..but now i can say that i'm really over that person..i can say that i'm now happy with my pathetic life..hehe..although sometimes i still get upset with the things i know i can't/won't change..but i'm happy..and surviving..

..i'm suuuuper excited with my new laptop..hehe..(ang yabang! Ü)..kaya sana everyday na ko magbblog! Ü

..i miss my accenture friends..i hope they're all ok..Ü

...whatever it is i'm feeling right now...i hate it...i hate it sooooooo much!!!...but i don't want it to stop...i don't care if he has a fucking gurlfriend...as long as he's there...as long as were together...it's more then enough for me to go on with my life...with my pathetic life...shit!! am i really falling for him?...i hate it that he's stubborn...he's slytly mayabang...i hate it when he teases me...everytime he says how ugly my new hair is...i hate it everytime he touches me...everytime he looks at me...everytime he smiles...everytime he says "andie you're hopeless"...i hate everything about him that i've learned to love him...




...so am i falling for him?

...i feel kinda bad bout what i wrote in my last entry...bout that 'girl'...siguro nga i felt suuuuuper jealous lang...i was beeing attacked by the green-eyed monster n nman...oh well...i found out na she just made up all the stories bout 'kumusta naman' liking her...ndi pla totoo...nag feeling lang pala sya...ako naman si gaga suuuuuper selos...how did i found out?...'kumusta naman' told me...apparently, 'kumusta naman' has been avoiding her for quite sometime now...as in suuuuuuper bad trip sya everytime i tease him...oh well...happy n nman si andie...

...it was a suuuuuupaaah saturday last march 18, 2005...why? cuz me & 'kumusta naman' went out...not really as in super out out (getz?)...basta we were outside the office..hehe..cuz our trainees just got their allowances & they invited us to go to the watering hole in shang...it was the first time na i was with him in a real 'gimmick' (oh well..morning kasi..gimik na din yun..Ü)...it was fun...we had a few drinks...talked a lot...it was a real quality time with the trainees...and with him of course...Ü

...then he started to become really sweet...as in suuuuuupah sweet...as in he had his arms around me...(as in akbay to the maxxx!)...basta...it felt kinda nice...pero mali...haaaaay naku...yan na naman...ndi pa nman sya lasing nun...as parang kami nung day n yun...labo...everybody saw it...ndi ko naman masabi na "baka he's just beeing nice" kasi alam kong ndi naman...ndi n naman ako bata...alam ko n yung mga ganito...i just dont wanna give meaning to things cuz alam ko na i'll be the whose gonna be left hurting in the end...shit andrea...ano n nman 'to...pro i liked it...as in i really did...it's sumthing na i thought that's never gonna happend...tapos he started to ask the trainees pa kung bagay kame...shit! why is he doing this?...tapos he kept on reading my inbox (cel) kasi parang he's jealous na ewan...ganito yung nangyare...inagaw nya yung cel ko then he said..."nakakainis ka na andie huh!! dami mong ka-text"...soo ano yun? ano na naman 'to? pero gusto ko...shit...does this mean i really like him na?


...shit...ndi pede...

...it's been a long time since my last "real" entry...i've been suuuuuuuper busy with work kasi...a lot of things happend...sooo many nakalimutan ko na yung iba...i'm feeling really sad & stupid this very moment..sad because i'm one of the associates who'll be moving to DESTINY...at first i really wanted it but now it seems like i dont wanna leave PAC anymore...haaaay...aalis na kasi yung isa kaya ok na sana kami sa PAC...& the one person i dont wanna be with ay makakasama ko sa destiny...kainis tlga...he's such an asshole!!!

...i feel stupid cuz i keep on thinking about this person...haaaay...i hate this...why did i ever entertained the thought of liking him...di ba yung friend nya ang gusto ko? bakit nagseselos ako ngayon? shit tlga!!! it's killing me!!! and that gurl? why does she have to be such a slut?! bakit kailangan nya lagi agawin lahat ng gusto ko? buwiseeeeeeet tlga!!! i'm really beginning to hate her soooooooo much!!! kung alam mo lang!!!! i dont fucking care!!!!!! why does she have to brag about everything!!! if i know talk shit lang yun!!!!! why does she have to be sooooooo insensitive!!!! insensitive na slut pa!!!!!! buwiseeeeeeet tlga!!!!! i hate her!!!!!!


....im sorry...i just have to let it all out...

...MAKAKARMA KA DIN!!!!!!...

**taken last nov 19 '05..me, anna , rain & joeven went to puerto...first vacation namen na complete kami...it was soooooooo much fun!!! as in!!! Ü

...my friend lalah sent me this email...i just wanna share this to everyone...


The Window...

A great note for all to read. It will take just 70 seconds to read this and change your thinking.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it. In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words. Days and weeks passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone. Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window. The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall. She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."

Epilogue: There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situation.Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled. If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy. "Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present."


..People will forget what you said...

...People will forget what you did...


...But people will never forget how you made them feel...Ü

...i dont really feel good 2day...


....if its not meant to be....



....i want my feelings to be all gone....


....i just dont wanna like him anymore...

...i hate this...i just want everything to stop...before i fall...


...cuz God knows i'm almost there...half way there...


...nang dahil sa yosi........